Sonogram update

me at 37 1/2 weeks...measuring 46weeks or more.

Well went in for my weekly baby check at the hospital....thinking that I would be in and out with no change at all....Well heart rate was good but took an hour to get the 20mins needed because he would not sit still. Yeah he is a crazy baby! We then did the sonogram...first off he is still a boy LOL then it was the hand on the cord...he has been holding it every time we see him. Then the bad news...Sandler is breech now with his feet down. CRUD last week he was head down but sunny side up (that was not good but could have him naturally). Now with what I have if my water breaks there is no doubt that I will have a cord prolapses...meaning the cord comes out with the water. Not only the breached position means C-section but the prolapses means there is no other choice. Not the option I wanted but if it has to be it will be...scared to leave the kids that long and the recovery too. The Doctor did not like hearing that the baby is breached and I go in in the am to see him. I am sure he will want to wait another week but we will see. The sweet nurse who has had me at the hospital the last 3 weeks told me just what to say to him about my fears. She told me to say that I have never had a breech baby and now with the polyhydramnios I am so scared to have a cord prolapses. This could cause big problems for Sandler if it happens. I am so scared and hope he listens to me I am shaking thinking of it and am so grateful my water has not broken yet even though I have prayed all weekend for it to happen. The nurse also told me if it does happen to sit as much as I can til I get to the hospital...to let Tryon get everything ready to go to the hospital and only walk to the car and then to the hospital. Glad to know! Then the other bad news my water levels went up my 4 points...not good this close to the big day either. I wish I could just get some good news for once. I cant wait til he is hear and I don't have to worry about the delivery any more. I have never been this scared going into labor but with everything going on I can help it. Not the best news to get on my Birthday but trying to keep my head up and pray that with the high levels of water he flips back the right way this time and stays.

almost 37weeks and counting....

Ok so here is the deal...Went into the hospital for my weekly baby/fluid check that I now have to go to every week. Got all hooked up and Sandler's heart rate was in the 190s not good so I had to sit for 30 extra mins to make sure he got back down to a normal range, which thank God he did. She said he was just over excited today but I think that was more to keep me from going crazy :) The nurse is really sweet and she made the whole hour and half I was there so much better. Well we talked about the new pain I am having which is rib pain that does not get better at all...add that to the pelvic and back pain and it sounds like I am falling apart. She was a little worried because while on my side for the baby heart rate check I was a little pail and puffing a little for air. But said it was prob. because he was laying on a vain/nerve that made me feel bad. Next was the sonogram. She told me "Well good thing is he is head down but he is facing up" Crud...if he does not figure out how to face down (to my back) that could mean harder and longer than normal labor...plus ripping which I have never had or a c-section (not wanting). She said we would keep an eye on that and that is a big reason my back feels like it is breaking because his spine and my spine are on top of each other. When he pushing back it hurts my back. Not good because of my back problems but hey what can we do about it. Then the little toot is still holding on to the umbilical cord nothing we can do there just something she did not like to see again. Seems like this kids is going to be ornery already...Anyways she wanted to see if we could see why my ribs are hurting so bad. See if it was baby or something else. Well it was both...only me...My placenta is right between my ribs good thing it is at the top but not much fun to have it between them. So now this ornery baby likes to put his feet on it so every time he moves around at all he pushes right into my ribs causing the pain and shortness of breath. Not going to get better just worst the bigger I get and he gets. She did say he was a big baby too...I knew that but nice to hear that I am not crazy with thinking that way. Anyways after all the measurements we found out I have not gained any more fluid but have not lost any either. So no good news but not bad either. The baby is a mover and all organs still look great. I got to see him take 4 good breaths and see some hair on his little head. His face looks good and as far as we can see no cleft palate so that is wonderful....Just means that we dont know why I am having the fluid problem but love that my baby is ok just big. :)

So left the hospital feeling good to know why I am having all these pains that I normally dont have. I know it wont get better but it is so nice to know why. Just the type of person I am I have to know why something is going on...hate we dont know why this time around I have polyhydramnios (which is the term for it) but still some answers are better than others...

Well then went to the doc to get checked and see what he is going to do about my pain/condition...Checked me and measuring 45 weeks at 36 1/2 weeks heart rate was good for him (he did look at the strip from the hospital too) Then told me I am dilated to a 2. Good so then I asked if that means with all the pain, my condition and bigness if that means we can induce sometime soon...Then told me that no induction til 39 weeks!!! WHAT I have always been induces by 38 weeks or more...not happy I was trying to ask about the cord prolapse that I have heard about with this condition and breaking on your own...he cut me off and was really rude about saying that there is no way he will induce before that unless something changes with the baby. Ok so I dont matter. I was mad at being talked to so rudely and I was not the best back. I just looked down and sat there...not proud to say that when he told me to have a good memorial day I just said I wish I could. Got out of there and broke down at the receptionist table. She came and hugged me and asked if the baby is ok. I said yes just hurting so bad I dont think I can do this any longer. She said she understood (she had twins so she is really the only one who does know how it feels to be this big and hurting) and just hugged me. I love the nurses at his office and seem to like the nurses here more than the docs. and the nurses in Abilene that i have had. I just hate to cry in front of people I dont know!!!!

SO all in all not a bad day just did not like being treated so badly and my fears yet again not being listened too. I am getting more info about this from the nurse at the hospital and love that she listened to my pain and watched me so well. She cant make the doc change his mind but it is so nice to have some one who is looking out for me as well as Sandler. She is a special lady to me and I am so glad she made sure I get here again next week. The bad thing is I get to go back on my B-day to see so many Mommies holding there babies and I would kill to be done and holding mine.

I asked Paisley today is she remembered mommy being like this with the other two and She said "NO mommy you never just sat and hurt like this. I worry about you" Made me sad but nice to know that it is not just me and tryon feeling that way. Trying to find the good in it all and Praying for strength and to go into labor on my own before he is way to big!

Baby is a monster! :)

Well today we had another apt with the doc. He came in and said ok we are at 36 weeks (no I am 35) so he has unofficially moved my due date up to June 8th! Hey I will take it LOL. Anyways he measures me at 44weeks OMG more than I thought or was ready for but ok. He did not say much but we did ask before he forgot about the sonogram he said things where still on the higher side of fluid so he wanted me to go to the hospital to be hooked up to the machines to check me and Sandler. Ok kind of scared about that one but so happy he is finally looking into things more. Also had to go get some blood work done to check my iron levels etc. to make sure that was not causing some of the problems. I wont know anything from that til next week. Anyways so went to the hospital for an hour and a half...only good news on him...his heart is fine and he was moving around just like a baby should. Machine off but then had yet another sonogram done. He is a monster baby...they did not measure how big he was just the fluid around him and the good news there is that the levels have gone down by 4 points and only have 5 more to be back in the normal range. That is great news but just means that the doc and I are both right LOL...baby is a big big boy and I am having a little more fluid than i should. Fine with me and glad to know something. His organs are all looking good and he is taking his practice breaths so that is another wonderful thing to add to the list. He is still a big mover and even with the extra fluid he is running out of room fast. The only thing that we are worried about is Sandler is holding onto and squeezing his umbilical cord. That could be causing some problems with the fluid and him getting the right amount of nutrition/blood. They really cant stop him and they are not ready to take him so we will see if he is doing that next week LOL. Yeah I get to go do this every week til he comes now so I am really hoping it is not far off because I don't like waiting up there for that long and the looks I get walking in because I look bigger than most the girls who are having there baby. So on top of my normal apt Wed I will also be going to the hospital to have everything checked again but at least my fears that something is wrong with Sandler are being proven wrong. Maybe now I can sleep a little better about that. I just keep praying for a reasonable size boy and for God to give me the strength to make it as far as needed for him. I am in lots and lots of pain and look like an old lady walking because the bones and muscles down there hurt so so bad. Things are not getting better but not getting worst. That is why they are watching me like crazy and making sure nothing happens to him or me before the big day. At least if he comes now he will not be put in the NICU! Something I did not want for him and now that worry is gone too. One more thing to be grateful for. Someone asked me today what I wanted for my birthday (that is 2 weeks away) and I told them just a baby would be great...we will see!

Sonogram Update

Today at 34 weeks/baby 36weeks/body 42/43weeks....Oh my...LOL

No body knows what is true with this Doc But God!

Well today had another sonogram! He was head down and still moving around from that thing. He never looks at the camera LOL. Anyways the cutest thing was him sucking his tongue, which is a good thing and means he is practicing for eating! He was big and all his organs still look good. To me he looked as if he had no room already and no much fluid like they think I have. She said he is measuring about 36 weeks instead of 34...which with my short (18" 19") small headed babies... he could be bigger than that. Yes I am a lucky mom who has a baby with a smaller than average head every time so it makes them seem smaller than they are on the sonogram. Also said he is looking like he is 6 1/2 lbs but as everyone knows sonograms are never right on that and he could be already 7 or 8lbs. BIG and looks ready. At this rate he is looking to be about 10 to 15lbs not wanting that at all. The reason I dont trust sonograms is one my mom had a tumor on her ovary and they said it was only the size of a grape fruit (still big) when they went in it was the size of a basket ball!!!! Major difference! The other is I know of 4 women who have gone in a few days before delivery for  a sono and been told they would be 7 lbs and came out 10!! Yeah no real trust in those things. I will not know what they think of the fluid levels til next week but while leaving she said The heavy  feeling I was have(which I have never said I was having) was because of the fluid not the baby. Well I dont feel heavy at all I feel the same as with the other 3 just and feel his head between my legs...SO there is another reason I dont feel as if I am carring any more than my normal amount of water. Also read that If to much fluids I would not feel the baby move much and we would not find his heart rate..no problem there at all this little guy is moving all the time and strong.

Mom saw me today for the first time in a 10 days and said I was much much lower than when she left on vacation. Which made me feel better that it was not just in my head or hoping. I really think he will come before May is done and for this mommy the sooner the better really A lady today also said she has seen me alot while at the mall with my mom and can tell just from the weeks that I am looking like I am carring this boy in my lap and I was not before! She was sweet and said she would pray for me and my baby. Love people like that...still sad that the doc is so set in his ways to listen but hey just like the lady said today..."Its not my first its my 4th and I know my body by now...expecially with how close they are. I have not had time to forget what happens from time to time!" LOL yeah she was sweet and funny. My body is ready and so if my family. I know my body is dialated and I feel the preasure of his head all the time even while sitting and that is a good sign. Not sleep at all and have the feeling of change coming. Another good sign. I have also been told that some time you feel sick at your stomic before the big day hits and that has been me the last 3 nights. I am trying not to look to every little thing as a sign and get my hopes up but it is hard not too. He just has to come in May to keep up our pattern of every 2 months a b-day LOL. I just keep praying for a good size baby and not to big!

I am not stressing and just doing my normal thing and just leaving it up to God (not that I am not praying hard for him to come soon). I am also doing things to help dialation along and not going to stop any kind of laybor at all. I know even if we are wrong and he is still not due til June God will have his hand in it. I already have one baby who has been touched by God so I know with prayer and trust he can do it again for Sandler if needed. I just cant wait to see him on the outside and hold him!

Tears and frustration yet again...

Ok so today was apt day with the baby doctor. Went in hoping that with Tryon there he would listen to my fears/pain and the feeling of dilation I have been having.

Well we get in and he measures me (i am only 33 1/2 weeks) I am now 42 weeks!! What up another week. So now I am measuring 9 weeks a head of what I am. Then it takes him a while to find my little guys heart beat...Did not like that at all. I am mad and Tryon ask him how long he is going to let me measure this much a head with out doing anything or if there is a point when it is to much. He cant give us an answer. Just says we will check the fluid again with a sonogram next week. Then I say I have always had extra fluid but have never measured more that 3 weeks a head. He says that there is some condition that is genetic that makes you carry to much fluid. I ask Why in just this one and not all of my other 3. No answer and looks stunted. Says that he is not wrong about the due date and that was that. Then I tell him that I have felt the pain of dilation all week and he says Well you will feel more pressure with each baby and carry lower. Really I think I already knew that and i did not say pressure I said pain. Still nothing. I am in tears and he does not care just tells me to take baths and rest a lot. Well that is what I have been doing. Tryon ask about the other prego test yet again and he says there is no chance that is was that, that could not happen. LOL I know of 4 women that that has happen to and one who bleed her whole pregnancy! He did not check me and I am mad. Left the office in tears and just hate that he will not take me serious. I am scared if he does not tend to the things going on that something bad will happen to me or to Sandler. Tryon can tell this little guy is getting lower and so can I. The kids can tell that mommy is getting close so sad that the person I picked to take care of me and my new baby cant listen and see that. He said that if there is to much fluid he will take some out with a needle. I dont think there is too much at all but there is no way in a million years he is sticking a needle into my stomach. He will have to induce me to drain the water. I will not have it disturbed or cause the baby harm in anyway! Tryon said the same thing that this guy acts like he does not know what he is doing and there is no way he is putting a needle near his baby. I know if he come he comes no matter what this guy or any one says but the fears are there and I am getting no relief from the from my care giver. I keep praying for him to come soon and to be healthy. I dont want a 10 to 12 lb baby! My body hurts and is screaming to be done just like I was already a few weeks away from having him.

I wish he would have checked me just to clam my fears if anything but no he

just treats me like I am dumb and just not wanting to be prego. I am not happy but hey Trying to keep my head up. Thank God my cousin was hear to help me talk things out today I love her and it was just what I needed. Hoping it is soon. I think my back will break if I go 7 more weeks

Just a few days ago

today 33 1/2 weeks measuring 42!
thinking he has dropped more.

Overly big

Well as everyone knows I now 33weeks prego but the baby is measuring around 37 weeks and my poor belly is around 41 weeks now. This meaning this Mommy is tired and my body is so ready to be done! My body has been giving big signs that labor is trying to come...I would love it if it does at any point! The doc told me not to listen to my body and to keep him in til June but dont think this body or this little guy is going to make it to June. I am thinking some time around the 16 or so but Tryon does not think we will make it til then. I will be happy to welcome him no matter when and we will work with what we get even if it is the NICU for a little bit. I go in to the doc on wed. and I will bet you anything that I am dialated even if it is just a 1. This little guy is loving to send pains in that area all week sometimes to the point I have to stop walking to let it pass. I also have a few other signs but they are not some people talk about...still no blood though so that is good. He has dropped now that is forsure and all my friends agree with that one...even Tryon and he never can tell right away. I even have that "I got to get things done" feeling...nesting. I just cant seem to sit still I have to get the rooms ready, clothes ready, etc. Now I really dont think it is like this week or anything but I feel like it is not that far off. The only hope I have is that he waits til my parents are back from vacation so that I dont have to worry about the other 3 kids. I know I have friends and other family who will help but I would feel alot better if it was my Mom watching them over night/s. We will see...I have tried to stop worring about him and let it be. I am not trying to make him come or trying to stop him from coming. The doc took me off light duty so I am just going about life as normal. I know God and Sandler know when is the right time for him to come and I have been praying for him not to be more than 10lbs and healthy.  Hoping God listens to that prayer with all my heart. After I let go and said ok to the possability of NICU my stress has lifted alot. Now it is not all the way gone because no Mom wants to see her new baby in the NICU at all and wants to be able to just sit and hold that sweet baby. I will say that I know he will be fine something is just telling me that he was never mint to have a June due date that he was the first prego test I took the month before and that I lost a twin or just bleed for no reason therefor he would be due in May. I am also kind of excited and scared to go into labor on my own...Never have before and been told with how fast I go being induesed I better get to the hospital fast if my water breaks on its own. I guess for this seasoned Mom there are still a few new things to do LOL.

Wost part of being a Mom

So as you all know my kids are just like their Mommy....mainly Keyton but the girls have both had a few bumps along the way too. The latest is little Brezlyn having to have stitches in her lip. Yes when they do get hurt they do it good. I hate when they get hurt like this and the worst part for me is feeling so helpless to their pain. There is nothing I can do to make the pain go away and having to watch them hurt and hear them cry over it breaks my heart. This is the part of mother hood that I cant stand and makes me feel like I have failed them in some way. I really wish I could take their pain for my self so that they would not have to go through the things they have. Like with Bee this time it hurt me to watch them give her that shot in the lip/cut and then stitch it up. Made me cry for her and with Keyton and his broken bones it just makes me sad to watch the active little boy sit and hurt. Paisley thankfully has only had to big boo boos and both where fine after a week or so. Both spranges just sore mainly but I still hate she hurt and was embarassed by the wrap/brace.  Thankfully God has made us to take the pain (even if not well) and we heal fast even if it needed the help of a Doctor. I know it will make them stronger and more careful....just wish they would listen when Mommy says...."If you don't stop ____ then you will get hurt!" Why do I have to have the kids that have to test that one out every time just to see if mommy is telling a stoy or not! :/ Oh well I am getting my pay back early for the things I put my mom through. :) Thanks mom for all those time you said "One day you will have a kid and they will make your heart stop and you will worry about them everytime they get hurt" Yes mom it is true it is so different watching them get hurt and trying to to worry about how bad they feel. I feel for you with me and Jaden now! I hope this is just a stage and they stop testing what Mommy says. I really wish I could put them in a bubble but Keyton could get hurt in there...who breaks there elbo by rolling over on it while playing games! Yes at times we have no idea how they did the things they did but that is life with 3 young hyper kids I guess and and very prego partly bed ridden Mommy!