Oh my...

Well hormons have really taken over me as....I cry over everything. I sent the kids all a video of Santa that we started doing last year. He talks to them, uses their names and looks at their file which has pics of them in it. It is really neat. Well even before I showed them the night before I watched to make sure it was all right and looked good. I cryed at all of them. Then while they watched I cryed at the faces they made and how excited they got over it all. Another time I cryed when we where watching a Christmas show and the main person said..."i don't even know what Christmas means" Paisley turns to me and said "Its Jesus' birthday and thats why we give because of him" WOW I was happy but the tears came. There are so many other times like getting them dressed for pics and how cute they all look. I cant keep the tears from coming at all.

I am also so easy to get mad right now and I feel so sorry for my family. I try not to but I cant help it some days. I hate this part and hope it stops soon because I think Tryon is going to kill me LOL.
He has made fun of me lovingly when I cry and when I am mad at nothing at all. He makes me laugh at how silly I seem now and all.

The other thing this has brought up is the sadness I feel when I think of this being our last Baby. I know my body is giving me signs this time that I should not do this again. With my back problems and other things that go along with that. Also the fear I have with lossing it. I thought it would be better after having a perfectly fine baby after but it is no different than with Brezlyn. I find myself scared ever min of the day and alway checking for blood. I know that sounds silly but it is on my mind no matter how hard I try not to think that way. Then I can see it is on Paisley's mind too...the other day in the bathroom I just checked out of habbit and she asked " Mommy is there blood?" I said "no baby not at all" she said " Oh good the baby is fine". Makes me sad to see she is already like that and i hope she forgets before she ever goes down this road. Anyways this fear is why I really don't want to do this again, It is just to hard to be scared all the time and the stress is wearing on me big time. The good news is it will be a little less in a few weeks when the first trimester is over!! Yeah i will be glad then it will be almost gone when I feel those good hard kicks and turns. I am feeling movement so that makes me happy and waiting til it is more constent and harder!!! I will miss the feeling of being pregnant and bringing home a new baby to the faimly but I hope one day our money situation will change and maybe we could adopt 2 more kids if God wills that. I would love to help a child out the way my Birth mother did me. I know this is the right choice for our family but it is hard for me to say that it is over when my heart could go on forever. LOL

I am sure it did not help that I wanted to do something to remeber baby Brenden as the Kids named the one that is in heaven. After lossing it my aunt gave me this angel holding a little baby. I have always looked at it as my baby being looked after by God and his angels. I also have the sonogram of this baby and have had them locked away...This year as we finished putting things on the walls with them finally being finished. I found my Angel and the sonogram photos. I framed the best one of my little one and put it in my room with the angel next to it. It is my Baby Brenden and will always be part of this family. I know it sounds a little silly but it was a good step for me. I have come to turms with the loss and now moving on with him/her in the family as well.

Then there is the excitement of June and I just cant wait to hold this baby and birng it home to be with its family. The kids pray every night for the baby to grow big and strong, which just melts my heart ever time. They kiss my belly and Brezlyn loves to poke my belly button and talk to it there. She also says there are two babies but we will see soon enough lOL. Paisley finally said today that she wants a brother for Keyton!!! Wow I was shocked because she has always just wanted sisters! I cant wait to hold it but I am still not looking forward to never doing all of this again.

Sorry for the rambling but there has been so many thing on my mind with this baby. I had to get some of them out before they swollowed me LOL.

Bring on Christmas!!!

Ok so we are not starting with the Christmas post just yet but this was too cute not to put up. Keyton had a really bad cough last week and need the Humidifier in his room. Brezlyn has loved it one every night to sleep with. So when I moved it into Keyton and Paisley's Room she woke up mad and scared. I let her sleep with Paisley the first night to ease her into sleeping with out it.

Cute pic of the girls in the same bed. She did good and stayed in bed with out falling out.

The only thing is she woke both kids up right at 7:30am...did not like that at all.

Now on to the Christmas side of it all. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving with My Mom's side of the family. We even had some of the family from Alabama here for the holiday and it was wonderful to see them also.
We made Keyton some Gluten free Banana bread, sweet potato casserole, an apple pie for me, and Tryon's fav. jalapeno poppers. So glad we made the first two for mister Keyton because there was not much he could have.
We did miss seeing Tryon's family this year and we where sad we could not make it up to see everyone with it being their turn for Thanksgiving. Tryon's schedule and money did not let us make the trip this year. We really wanted to see the other two girls in the family who are also Prego like us. Katie and Brazos are due in April, Tahj and Glenn (newly weds) are due in May or maybe June, and we are due in June maybe May. Would have been fun all of us together with baby bumps!!

Keyton wanted to wear his Christmas shirt a few days before Thanksgiving

And everyone has been so excited for the Christmas season.

Paisley and Brezlyn looking cute in there all matching outfits!!!

Love this one and they are so sweet together.

Now on to start the Christmas season...We decided to put up the Tree the day before Thanksgiving on Tryon's day off. We had gotten a new pre lit tree at a garage sale this summer for only $25 and we where all excited to see the new tree up and to make sure it worked. It did thankfully and the fun of finding all the ornaments, places for all the new dec. we got after season last year, and having fun with Christmas music playing. This year was Brezlyn's first year to dec. the tree and she was so so excited about it. To the point she has gotten in trouble now for taking things off and finding new places for it. She has now stopped that and loves everything Christmas.

Paisley organizing the ornaments into who gets what LOL.

She thinks she is the boss now over her younger sibs.

Keyton putting on a snowflake!! He had so much fun this year and I love that

He likes to find just that perfect place for it. So cute
Little Bee having a blast getting to be one of the big kids
She did good better than I thought she would being so young.

Daddy Helping Brezlyn reach the top to hang so stuff.

Keyton Loved standing on the step stool to hang them just a little higher

Bee loved to put the character ones on like Elmo, frosty and more

Paisley with the ornament she picked out last year. Daddy

Helping her get it in just the right spot

Tryon had to do most the top of the tree this year. I could not reach...Oh yeah did

I say it is a Nine ft tree this year!!!!

Love it and love how much Christmas it is!!!

Tryon putting on the topper that yes touches the celling LOL.

Paisley found our Santa hat and was being cute running around in it!

Now time for out door lights!!! Tryon did most of the work while we played outside.

I did help with the bushes and the trees but that's about it!

Our tree up and looking good that night after we where done for the day.

Our first year in a long time to have outside lights!!!

The bushes in the front cover the whole side of the house and

flash so that is why it looks like there is not that many of them.

Love the house all lit up!

Tryon and I did hit the Black Friday sales this year!!! Now we are done with shopping all around for Christmas. I just have to finish making the things I was making for family and maybe pick up a few outfits for Brezlyn but other than that we are done!!! Love being done with shopping this early so that the season is not tainted with stress of crowds and looking for pres. We are so excited for Christmas to come and the kids are already asking how long til the day. Think I am taking a friends Idea and wrapping up a Christmas books and letting them open one each night to read til Christmas!!! Seems like a good way to show them how many days left and a fun tradition in the making. Of course we will do a Christmas craft to add to the decorations we have and more things to do before Christmas morning.

We are all doing well and the kids are so sweet about the baby on the way. They kiss my belly all the time and love on it...Oh yes I am already showing bad!!! I look like I did at 4 months with Paisley!! I am shocked and people are already asking all the time when I am due...then comes are u sure its not TWINS! No I am not sure it is not twins and would love that if God blessed us with Two at once. I have always wanted to have twins and always wanted them to be my last babies of the bunch. Yes sadly this will be the last preg. for us. It hard to say this is coming to an end but I really dont' think my body, money could handle another round. Also I always wanted the one above them to be over 2 and Bee will be 2 1/2 when the baby comes so everything would be perfect for that but I am not getting my hopes up. I am more tired than I ever remember being with the other 3 but my first trimester is almost over so I should get some energy back soon. I do feel prego and already fill those pains of growth you have! I am ready to have a sonogram but that will be a few more weeks before we get one of those...then I will know LOL.

BIG 5!!!

Wow I never thought this day would come!!! My first baby turned 5 on the 2nd of Nov. Crazy to think that she is that old now, seems just yesterday I brought her home form the hospital. :) She loves to get her and her sibs their cereal in the am and help out in any way. She is a joy and also loves life, animals and God. She is a smart little girl who can count to 100, starting to read, spell, add, and working on telling time.
She had a Fancy Nancy party....On her true birthday we let her open a pres as we always do and it was the matching Fancy Nancy dress to her doll. She was so so happy to wear it to the party which was a dress up party too. We had a wonderful time and all the kids looked so cute and seemed to have a blast.

One thing that she really wanted to do to make it fancy was the colored hair spray so that is what we did everyone picked their colors and if they wanted glitter and we sprayed their hair!

Paisley's pretty hair

Her Best little friend Sloan

Keyton's crazy hair

Cooper

Little Bee LOL

We also did tattoos...

Paisley and Sloan showing them off. They were so

Excited because they had the same shoes on that day!!! LOL

Pres. time...She got so many good things and loved them all

Another Fancy Nancy dress!!!

Pizza time..She wanted a pizza party so daddy left to get

pizza for everyone!!! I made a special one for Keyton so he would not feel left out!!

The Cake...tried to make it look like a crown LOL

Cupcake and ice cream time.

After the party she laid in the floor with daddy to play with her new fav. thing

a learning lap top from Nanna!!!

After nap time we went to get the mail and she had two more pres.

First from Memaw and Pepaw (great grands) in abilene!! So sweet one of her

fav. books from their house.

Then from Aunt Cissy and Uncle Deon!!

She loves it and cant wait to make things to wear with the other set she got from the party!!

It is amazing to me the person she has become and I can't wait to see what the year brings for her. Her love for learning is so wonderful and her love for God as well. She is going to be an amazing lady one day and I am so glad I get the chance to watch her grow!!! We love you baby girl and so glad you had a wonderful day!!!