Well I have had a test run to see if my arteries are inflamed and they came back normal. I went to another doc. and he thinks i am suffering form sever migraines that are caused by an allergic reaction. If things don't stay good we will be going to a ENT doc. to see what they can find out. Lately I have been feeling better but today is the first day with out steroids so we will see if just the over the counter meds will work. For now nothing new.
We are moving our stuff to Amarillo this Sunday or Monday and then me and the kids will be there after the 6th. Cant wait to be in the house.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Asking for prayer
I need so prayers....On the 4th of July I had something get into my eye and as a result of rubbing it or the object that got into my eye my temple and eye swelled up. I went to the eye doc. the wed after the 4th and he gave me medicated drops and told me if the temple was not back to normal to go to the doc on Friday. So I had to go to the doc. he gave me some steroids and told me to come back in if not normal in a week and 1/2. Well it was only one week and I went back in because it was more swollen and other areas of my face are now swelling up. Also the pain is wost. They are having me come back in in the Morning to have blood work done to see if my Temple artery is inflamed. I am a little scared and want to know what is going on with my face/head. I hope we find out soon and get started on the treatment so that I can be healthy for my kids. Please pray for an answer and healing as I now start my own road to answers/cure. Thank you and I will update everyone when I find out.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Down...
Sorry to everyone who waiting for pics. Our computer is sick and I cant get pics to upload right now. We have been really busy with the move coming up and all the family that has come in this summer. I promise once things are back to normal to have tons of pics up for everyone to see.
Today my little Bee is 6 months!!! Wow how time has gone by. She is doing very well and growing all the time. She has 2 teeth on the bottom and is working on some more. She is so sweet and loves to play with the kids as much as she can. She loves animals and was so excited that our little cat let her pet her the other day. She is almost crawling and gets so upset that she cant move yet. She will be soon enough. She is so fun and I cant wait to see the person she becomes!
The big kids are doing good and getting ready for the big move. Paisley is over the moon because her kitty had babies and we get to bring them all to Amarillo!!! She is so excited and cant wait to hold the little babies! She is ready to have her cats at our house now and is trying to get Tryon to keep all the cats...Hehehehe will see.
Other than this nothing big is going on. Keyton is still a sweet heart who loves to love on you and play anything and paisley is still so smart and ready to go to school again.
hope to get the cpu fixed soon.....
Today my little Bee is 6 months!!! Wow how time has gone by. She is doing very well and growing all the time. She has 2 teeth on the bottom and is working on some more. She is so sweet and loves to play with the kids as much as she can. She loves animals and was so excited that our little cat let her pet her the other day. She is almost crawling and gets so upset that she cant move yet. She will be soon enough. She is so fun and I cant wait to see the person she becomes!
The big kids are doing good and getting ready for the big move. Paisley is over the moon because her kitty had babies and we get to bring them all to Amarillo!!! She is so excited and cant wait to hold the little babies! She is ready to have her cats at our house now and is trying to get Tryon to keep all the cats...Hehehehe will see.
Other than this nothing big is going on. Keyton is still a sweet heart who loves to love on you and play anything and paisley is still so smart and ready to go to school again.
hope to get the cpu fixed soon.....
Monday, July 5, 2010
Remember.....
Sorry this post is mainly for me but you are more than welcome to read my thoughts if you would like.
This week I would have a one year old. My little angel would have made its way into the world as of the 8th but sadly never made it past 10 1/2 weeks of pregnancy. My due date was not til the 18th but I have never went past a week before so this would have been the latest date for me. This month and Dec. are now a hard month for me. Yes I have 3 beautiful healthy kids one who would not be here if this tragedy had not happened. I am very blessed to have them all and there is not a day that goes by that I do not thank God for the beautiful gifts he has given me. This however does not heal my bleeding heart for the baby I never had the chance to meet. Yes (sadly and with a heavy heart) I did hold it for a moment but this is something I wish never happened. I still wonder who and what the little angel would be like and what it would have been to be give it a big 1st birthday this week. I miss that baby terribly and I am having a hard time letting it go. (something people never understand til it happens to you) I wish I would have had the chance to know that baby for a little longer time ( in some ways) or that It never would have happened at all. I still can't understand why or how and I know i never will. I have struggled with my faith over this and questioned God. I know God will bring something good out of this one day, I have seen him do it before in my life. I know Brezlyn is one thing I have now that I would not have if the other one had made it. It is just hard to see the light some days and to see the good in things. I miss my baby because it was a part of me and a future that I will never have now. My world was tossed upside down that Dec. and it took all i had to keep it from taking me with it. I still have a hard time with the fact that I almost died that day too and my poor babies had to watch that. I could have and almost did bleed to death right before their little eyes. I stayed awake for them and made it to the hospital for those two beautiful kids. They kept me going and it is scary to think that if I did not have any other kids that I may have given up that day.....I am grateful for them everyday...
What makes things so hard is that my sweet girl has to feel all this pain as well. Paisley still talks about our other baby and it breaks my heart every time she says..."our other baby is in heaven". I am so glad she wants to remember it but it sometimes hurts so much. Also just the fact that she has had to go through the stages of grief to at such a young age. Keyton gets nervous every month because I bleed again and he is scared of this now after what he saw. My heart breaks for them every time....
I think God for a safe pregnancy with Brezlyn and that her birth went well. I also am so grateful that her cyst when away and she is now a healthy happy baby. I am also so grateful to her for healing (just a small Part) my heart and bringing me back. I love all my kids even the one I never got to see. I enjoy watching them grow every day and cant wait to see what life has in store for them. I hope one day to finally see my little one who (as Paisley says) is with the angels...they are taking care of it now.
Sorry for the sad speech but I needed to get it out. I am still struggling and i know grief is a long hard road. One day I will make it down it....
This week I would have a one year old. My little angel would have made its way into the world as of the 8th but sadly never made it past 10 1/2 weeks of pregnancy. My due date was not til the 18th but I have never went past a week before so this would have been the latest date for me. This month and Dec. are now a hard month for me. Yes I have 3 beautiful healthy kids one who would not be here if this tragedy had not happened. I am very blessed to have them all and there is not a day that goes by that I do not thank God for the beautiful gifts he has given me. This however does not heal my bleeding heart for the baby I never had the chance to meet. Yes (sadly and with a heavy heart) I did hold it for a moment but this is something I wish never happened. I still wonder who and what the little angel would be like and what it would have been to be give it a big 1st birthday this week. I miss that baby terribly and I am having a hard time letting it go. (something people never understand til it happens to you) I wish I would have had the chance to know that baby for a little longer time ( in some ways) or that It never would have happened at all. I still can't understand why or how and I know i never will. I have struggled with my faith over this and questioned God. I know God will bring something good out of this one day, I have seen him do it before in my life. I know Brezlyn is one thing I have now that I would not have if the other one had made it. It is just hard to see the light some days and to see the good in things. I miss my baby because it was a part of me and a future that I will never have now. My world was tossed upside down that Dec. and it took all i had to keep it from taking me with it. I still have a hard time with the fact that I almost died that day too and my poor babies had to watch that. I could have and almost did bleed to death right before their little eyes. I stayed awake for them and made it to the hospital for those two beautiful kids. They kept me going and it is scary to think that if I did not have any other kids that I may have given up that day.....I am grateful for them everyday...
What makes things so hard is that my sweet girl has to feel all this pain as well. Paisley still talks about our other baby and it breaks my heart every time she says..."our other baby is in heaven". I am so glad she wants to remember it but it sometimes hurts so much. Also just the fact that she has had to go through the stages of grief to at such a young age. Keyton gets nervous every month because I bleed again and he is scared of this now after what he saw. My heart breaks for them every time....
I think God for a safe pregnancy with Brezlyn and that her birth went well. I also am so grateful that her cyst when away and she is now a healthy happy baby. I am also so grateful to her for healing (just a small Part) my heart and bringing me back. I love all my kids even the one I never got to see. I enjoy watching them grow every day and cant wait to see what life has in store for them. I hope one day to finally see my little one who (as Paisley says) is with the angels...they are taking care of it now.
Sorry for the sad speech but I needed to get it out. I am still struggling and i know grief is a long hard road. One day I will make it down it....
Friday, July 2, 2010
a few pics
Here are a few pics I got loaded before the computer went down....
The first set are from my Cus. wedding from back in May.. It was a quick trip and the wedding was beautiful! Paisley loved seeing Jen in her dress and Keyton loved all the attention from friends and family. Bee loved a little one on one time with mommy. I was in the wedding and she went with me to all the before wedding fun.
Paisley with all the single girls.. Sweet thing wanted to be in everything
Jen and the girl who did get it! Paisley was so cute
Paisley and my cus. Brittany dancing!
The first set are from my Cus. wedding from back in May.. It was a quick trip and the wedding was beautiful! Paisley loved seeing Jen in her dress and Keyton loved all the attention from friends and family. Bee loved a little one on one time with mommy. I was in the wedding and she went with me to all the before wedding fun.
Mommy, Daddy and our sweet Bee at the reception
Paisley with all the single girls.. Sweet thing wanted to be in everything
Jen and the girl who did get it! Paisley was so cute
Paisley and my cus. Brittany dancing!paisley just loves her
More dancing...my kids love this part of weddings
Silly boy dancing with mommy! He had so much fun
Uncle Jaden and Brezlyn watching all the fun
Our little family having fun
Nonnie and Poppy and my sweet baby
Paisley the day before the wedding...
More dancing...my kids love this part of weddings
Silly boy dancing with mommy! He had so much fun
Uncle Jaden and Brezlyn watching all the fun
Our little family having fun
Nonnie and Poppy and my sweet baby
Paisley the day before the wedding...While we were getting ready for the rehursal she came out of the bath room with Tryon's glasses on it was really cute!
Keyton showing off his rolly polly at the rehursal.
Paisley with a rolly polly at the rehursal
Daddy and sweet little bee being cute ant the rehursal dinner.
More dancing from the wedding
Keyton showing off his rolly polly at the rehursal.
Paisley with a rolly polly at the rehursal
Daddy and sweet little bee being cute ant the rehursal dinner.
More dancing from the weddingThey made friends with the flower girl and Paisley still talks about her
Loving on each other!!! love these moments
Keyton loves to do this with his shirt and call himself a turtle...silly boy
Being silly in the bath!!! They have so much fun in the bath.
Loving on each other!!! love these moments
Keyton loves to do this with his shirt and call himself a turtle...silly boy
Being silly in the bath!!! They have so much fun in the bath.They are looking at each others silly hair and being scared.
June 4-12 We made a tirp down to Amarillo to see family...We had a great time and got to see a lot of people who we never get to see. 
Sorry a little out of order...Kids taking a "nap" on their new dresser
Little Girl looking so cute all dressed up in her car seat
Keyton at the mall playground...He loves snakes and I thought this would be a cute pic in his room one day!!! He loves this big old snake
Paisley wanted a cute pic. too so she got on the Armadillo
Me and my little baby at Nonnie's house.
With all my babies! Love this pic
My new project...Made this bow holder for my new little niece!! So cute...
June 4-12 We made a tirp down to Amarillo to see family...We had a great time and got to see a lot of people who we never get to see.The first night there all the kids with GG
Sorry a little out of order...Kids taking a "nap" on their new dresser
Little Girl looking so cute all dressed up in her car seat
Keyton at the mall playground...He loves snakes and I thought this would be a cute pic in his room one day!!! He loves this big old snake
Paisley wanted a cute pic. too so she got on the Armadillo
Me and my little baby at Nonnie's house.
With all my babies! Love this pic
My new project...Made this bow holder for my new little niece!! So cute...Hope to sell these too
Also for my niece also would love to sell these too....
Playdate with our sweet amarillo friends...Matthew holding Brez
Paisley, Mandie and Keyton playing dress up
The kids loved this They would crawl in the box and Uncle Jaden would sling them out..
Also for my niece also would love to sell these too....
Playdate with our sweet amarillo friends...Matthew holding Brez
Paisley, Mandie and Keyton playing dress up
The kids loved this They would crawl in the box and Uncle Jaden would sling them out..They would go flying and laugh so hard.
Brezlyn loved watching all of it! She laughed so hard
Wow they fit I will never understand!!! Makes for a funny pic.
More being cute
Out!!! But in a cute new outfit...
Being cute on Nonnie's swing...Her outfit is just like bees but diff color.
Brezlyn loved watching all of it! She laughed so hard
Wow they fit I will never understand!!! Makes for a funny pic.
More being cute
Out!!! But in a cute new outfit...
Being cute on Nonnie's swing...Her outfit is just like bees but diff color.She loves to play on the swing!
Trying to be scary on the swing!!! in his new snake shirt!
On their new bikes that stay at Nonnie's house!
Watching cartoons in the morning...So sweet
Showing off that sweet smile...She loves to be on her tummy
Playing wiht cus. Brittany. One of the 3 sets of family that came in that weekend
Nonnie and Aunt Cissy with little Bee
We went swimming at Aunt Tree's house a few times. The 2nd time we went Keyton jumped off the ladder and started swimming all by himself!!! i was so excited.
Excited little boy!
My big girls who loves to swim
Brezlyn in her cute swim hat taking a bottle break with mommy
My big kids
Being cute in Nonnie's door! Such a pretty girl
Key's fav. spot to hide and play
My girls playing...Paisley has always loved doing tummy time with the babies
Playing with Poppy
Looking good on the way home with all her stuff...
Being cute at home playing outside...They both love to be outside
Trying to tell me about the grasshoppers...looks to cute
Always watching her big sis and bro!! Such a cute babie
our house for a few more weeks....
Keyton and Biscuit digging in the yard.
Key on his bike
Paisley running from wags...
Loves to sleep in the swing
Out of order again but looking cute outside!!!
Trying to be scary on the swing!!! in his new snake shirt!
On their new bikes that stay at Nonnie's house!
Watching cartoons in the morning...So sweet
Showing off that sweet smile...She loves to be on her tummy
Playing wiht cus. Brittany. One of the 3 sets of family that came in that weekend
Nonnie and Aunt Cissy with little Bee
We went swimming at Aunt Tree's house a few times. The 2nd time we went Keyton jumped off the ladder and started swimming all by himself!!! i was so excited.He was so proud of himself and swam all day!!! Now I have 2 little fish
Keyton swimming with Nonnie
Excited little boy!
My big girls who loves to swim
Brezlyn in her cute swim hat taking a bottle break with mommy
Her fav. thing about swimming was sleeping on her raft..She did it everytime
so funny...pic latter.
My big kids
Being cute in Nonnie's door! Such a pretty girl
Key's fav. spot to hide and play
My girls playing...Paisley has always loved doing tummy time with the babies
Playing with Poppy
Looking good on the way home with all her stuff...
Being cute at home playing outside...They both love to be outside
Trying to tell me about the grasshoppers...looks to cute
Always watching her big sis and bro!! Such a cute babie
our house for a few more weeks....
Keyton and Biscuit digging in the yard.
Key on his bike
Paisley running from wags...
Loves to sleep in the swing
Out of order again but looking cute outside!!!
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